I don't know if it's just me but I live in a household with two very aggressive, hard-headed, tyrannic women.
That may sound bad all the time but it's not that bad all the time.
Most of the time, it is.
Let's start with my mother.
She was born and raised her whole life in the Philippines, a whole other culture and she was a law student, aspiring to become a lawyer in the Philippines. Right before she gave birth to me, she was just about to take her bar exam (which I have no doubt in my mind that she would have passed) but she decided not to go through with it because, well.. I was baking in her oven.
(Not literally)
Anyways, my mother has always been a very strong woman, which is pretty much an understatement for the kind of person she is. She asserts herself in whatever way she can, she LOVES to exercise control over anything and anyone and she definitely has NO problem speaking her mind. In this aspect, I fully and totally admire her for the woman that she is. She's incredibly hardworking like you wouldn't believe and I actually think she's an undercover super hero sometimes (full-time business woman, full-time mother to 3 kids, full-time wife, full-time everything).
I completely love and respect my mother with every bone and cell in my body, trust me, but she is the most infuriating person in the entire planet sometimes (don't I just sound like a teenager? Heh). She's completely tyrannic because she has the SHORTEST (and when I say short, I mean MINUSCULE) temper I've ever experience in any individual my entire life. She's a very passionate woman so when she gets angry - she gets REALLY angry.
She says a lot of things that she doesn't mean and are completely unreasonable, she does things very drastically and dramatically just to unleash her anger.. Overall, she's the worst person to be around when she's not in a good mood. I just wish that she were able to control her anger more and stop taking things so seriously and so heavily and just start... you know, being more light-hearted and slow-tempered. Her temper and her inability to control her temper (despite the fact that she seems to be a master at control everything and everyone else) is really starting to take a toll on our relationship and I really don't want that with my mom. When she's in a good mood, we have tons of fun together and she's super fun to be around. She's funny, she's easy-going, she's such a good vibe to be around... when she's in a good mood. Otherwise, she's a complete (excuse me, Jesus) bitch.
Segue over to my second-youngest sister now.
My second-youngest sister is a year and 8 months younger than me so we're basically twins (we look very much alike, same height and everything) and we do everything together. Unfortunately... You know how they say there's a good twin and there's a bad twin?
She's most definitely the bad twin.
From the moment we were babies, she was the one who threw a tantrum every 2 seconds, who screamed her head off all night long for no reason, who refused to be put down and left alone, who threw things at people and hit people whenever they approach them.
Little has changed since then.
While I inherited my dad's calm, easy-going, slow-tempered, semi-careless mindset... she inherited my mom's mindset.
It can be really difficult living with ONE tyrant, imagine with living with two?! It drives me insane sometimes. I'm not saying I'm perfect (those two are MUCH better than me at many, many, many things) but what I like about myself is that I am very good at controlling my anger and I have a very slow-temper. I don't come off as intimidating or scary, I'm more relaxed and happy-go-lucky.
A lot of the times, I feel like those two team up and gang up on me whenever I say something that they disagree with. Whenever they say something that I disagree with, I usually just keep my comments to myself and listen to whatever they're saying to avoid an argument but they really have no trouble starting one.
The crazy, hypocritical thing is that once the argument starts - they blame it on me!
I think that because those two are just so OBSESSED with control and being right all the time, they can't handle being wrong at sometimes and can never admit when they do wrong. It's disheartening because they're such good people and they're strong attitude and quick temper get way ahead of them.
I cherish the times when neither of us are screaming at each other or giving each other attitude because it could literally be only a few seconds and then BAM - we're all screaming again.
I feel like myself and my poor dad are just basically the doormats they walk on a lot of the times and maybe we take for granted what my mom does, I know I should really express more appreciation for what she does because she really deserves it, but I think that it should be a two-way streak as well.
I'm just praying that our family dynamics will strengthen and we'll just grow stronger together as a unit because these lunatics mean the most to me in the whole world.
Regardless of all of this, I still love them and they're my rock.
Can't choose family, right?
Lol.
Cheers,
Sty xo
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